Chapter 450 - "Identity Crisis"

Elliana and the others still weren't so sure that the one inside Ainsley was Ainsley herself. 

After all, she had this menacing aura around her….

She resembled the Godfather! 

Ainsley herself didn't realise that although the Godfather already left her body, she still subconsciously acted just like when the Godfather possessed her. 

The baby played with her Pocky as the group left the Roane Alchemist Guild building without anyone stopping them, since the alchemists were all under her charm. 

She would also ruffle her hair occasionally….just like the Godfather. 

Seeing Ainsley's weird attitude ever since she let the Godfather possess her, Jevon finally braced himself to ask. 

"Uh...boss, are we going home now?" Jevon asked Ainsley while the group headed toward their carriage that they parked not far from the building. 

"Ah? Of course. We don't have any business left with those mongrels." Ainsley clicked her tongue as she rubbed her chin.

"What about the auction license?" Jevon asked more and this time, the baby subconsciously blurted. 

"This lord will contact the alchemist guild headquarter to ask for the license. The Roane branch can't be trusted." 

! 

Elliana and the five buds paused. They suddenly looked at each other with a fearful gaze. 

Uh…'this lord'...? Isn't that how the Godfather always addresses himself? Don't tell us the one in control is still the Godfather? 

The youngsters were dumbfounded. They thought that Ainsley was already back...but it turned out to be the Godfather after all?! 

Little did they know that this phenomenon was common among newbie shamans. 

It was called 'identity crisis'. 

The more often the shamans let their spirit possess them, their original character might be mixed with the spirit's characteristics. 

Usually, it would happen when the spirit was way stronger than the shaman. 

Whenever the spirit possessed the shaman's body, a trace of their characteristic still remained in the body, making the shaman subconsciously act like their contracted spirit. 

Since Ainsley often trained her shaman ability, inevitably, she often let the Godfather possess her. Thus, this thing happened without her knowing. 

The Godfather, who was watching the baby from above, couldn't help but sigh. 

[Lil lass. Do you realise you have signs of identity crisis?] The Godfather finally decided to tell Ainsley after the group boarded the carriage. 

Ainsley was propping her chin, looking out of the window in a daze when she heard the Godfather's words and almost knocked her forehead to the window. 

[W-what? Identity crisis? The most common trouble that newbie shamans experienced??] 

The baby was so shocked that she forgot to use her cutesy language...or maybe because the Godfather's characteristics still influenced her. 

[Yeah. You said 'this lord' a few minutes before and acted like this lord. It's a sign of the 'identity crisis' phenomenon.] 

Ainsley was already having headaches because of the Roane alchemist guild and the license thing...now, she even got a surprise issue at hand. 

[Ah...what to do, uncle? I heard that if we don't cure this illness soon, I might completely lose my identity?] Ainsley bit her lips as she put aside the matter with her potion auction license. 

There's nothing more important than her current issue! 

Is this why the Godfather told her not to make a contract with him? It's because he's way too strong, right? 

The Godfather could feel Ainsley's anxiety, and the spirit let out a sigh once more. 

[Don't worry. Just make sure you keep your cheesy baby talk and try to focus whenever this lord possesses your body.] 

[Focus?] 

[Yeah. You can't control your body, but you still have to try feeling your body. Don't think of yourself as a bystander when this lord possesses you.] 

[Bystander…] 

[Exactly. This Lord bet that you only fuel the shaman energy into the body and do nothing but watch this lord use your body, right?] 

At that question, Ainsley couldn't help but gasp. 

[W-well, indeed! But what should I do when I can't do anything but watch…] The baby grumbled and pouted. 

Without her knowing, she had slowly regained her characteristic that she lost earlier. 

[You actually can try acting as if you're piloting a mecha. You know mecha?] 

[I know.] 

[Good. Imagine yourself as a mecha pilot...but you're not alone. You have this lord as the second pilot, and this lord has more control than you.] 

[Ah...piloting a mecha...and then?] 

Ainsley could slowly imagine the thing that the Godfather suggested to her. 

Becoming a shaman was not as easy as letting the spirit do all the work for you, after all. 

In the end, their peak ability was when they could borrow the spirit's ability without needing the spirit to control their body. 

[Try to coordinate with this lord.] 

[Coordinate…] 

Ainsley imagined herself piloting a mecha with the Godfather and indeed, even though she had less control compared to the Godfather, it's not as if she's completely useless. 

[Maybe you can't move your hand, can't use your abilities or do anything complicated when this lord possesses you...but you can try to do something simple.] 

[Such as?] 

[Blinking. Inhaling and exhaling. Clicking your tongue and puffing your cheek. Use baby language in between this lord's speech…] 

The Godfather paused before continuing. 

[You can't forever expect this lord to do all the jobs for you. Else, in the end, you won't be needed, and you will 'disappear'.] 

There were tons of cases where the shaman lost their identity and thought of themselves as their contracted spirit instead. 

They became someone that they weren't in the first place, completely losing their consciousness as their original self. 

What if Ainsley became like that? 

Just thinking about it already made the baby shudder. 

Oh, fck, no! Don't want to! 

Ainsley immediately looked at Godfather in the air and sobbed. 

[Gwodfathel, c-can I really be cured?] 

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